Life as a Widower

A young widowed father opening up about living with loss

about time

Exactly 1,641 days ago I wrote several hundred words that would ultimately shape my life for the next four and half years. I sat staring at my laptop’s screen, desperate … Continue reading

July 5, 2017 · 41 Comments

crashing waves

A friend emailed me this morning after reading something he thought I might like to see. ‘Now in my defence,’ he began, ‘I never send you stuff like this, but I stumbled … Continue reading

August 11, 2015 · 18 Comments

tell them

The eighty-five-year-old driver who killed my wife, Desreen, was jailed today for eighteen months for causing her death by dangerous driving. He was also banned from driving for life. I … Continue reading

December 22, 2014 · 429 Comments

fortune tellers

I’ve heard it said that you should never read your own reviews. Having never written anything that was subject to public critique before I wrote my first book, however, I … Continue reading

October 28, 2014 · 10 Comments

cover story

Last week I felt the sudden pang of an emotion that I haven’t experienced in a very long time: excitement. It took me entirely by surprise not least because it … Continue reading

January 15, 2014 · 10 Comments

conflicted year

This time last year my wife had been dead for just seven weeks. Although a number of friends had invited me to spend New Year’s Eve with them, I decided … Continue reading

December 31, 2013 · 5 Comments

love letters

In June 1997 a journalist called Mary Schmich published a column in the Chicago Tribune entitled ‘Advice, like youth, probably just wasted on the young‘. I was at university when the column … Continue reading

December 22, 2013 · 3 Comments

happy christmas

Having lost my wife late last year it probably goes without saying that 2013 has been an unhappy year for me, save the joy our little boy has continuously brought. But … Continue reading

December 12, 2013 · 7 Comments

christmas angel

This week I decided to give Christmas a go. This time last year my wife had only been buried a week, and yet somehow I felt more determined to try … Continue reading

December 8, 2013 · 18 Comments

birthday boy

Jackson, my boy, as you’re three today, There are two or three things that I’d like say. There are one or two things you might never have known, And there … Continue reading

October 17, 2013 · 42 Comments

birthday beats

Today’s my 34th birthday. This means I’m now what I said I feared most when I gave my wife’s eulogy – older than she ever got chance to be – … Continue reading

August 12, 2013 · 31 Comments

time out

This whole blogging business is still pretty new to me. Having set up my site without giving it too much thought, I never really got chance to explore any guidelines … Continue reading

July 29, 2013 · 22 Comments

love reigns

Lost that bitter winter’s night, Searching balmy summer days for you, Beams of light from a sunset sky Illuminate you in his radiant face. Hope whispers tender words of warmth, … Continue reading

July 27, 2013 · 4 Comments

park life

A few weeks ago I wrote a post about how sad I felt seeing my son so happy in the park. About how his first joyous experience of a bouncy … Continue reading

July 5, 2013 · 4 Comments

breathtaking boy

I always hate the idea of train travel with my son. It’s the not knowing how he’s going to behave that bothers me. I pray he’ll sleep for the whole … Continue reading

June 25, 2013 · 15 Comments

engaging memories

I’m sitting in the spot in Regent’s Park where Desreen and I got engaged four years ago this week. It’s a day much like that one. Warm but overcast. Close. … Continue reading

June 18, 2013 · 9 Comments

annabel’s angels

This is a special Father’s Day guest post by Simon Hancox Simon’s wife Annabel was diagnosed with secondary breast cancer in April 2012. She died just after Christmas last year, … Continue reading

June 15, 2013 · 2 Comments

forever love

This afternoon I attended my first wedding since my wife died. I had no ‘plus one’, just me and my friends. I was the guy on his own, which I … Continue reading

June 2, 2013 · 11 Comments

past tense

Today marks six months since my wife was killed. This milestone has had me reflecting on the past. More specifically on the past tense. Something I’ve struggled with since the … Continue reading

May 10, 2013 · 13 Comments

miss you

Miss Confident Miss Shy Miss Fun Miss Hilarious Miss Loving Miss Loved Miss Organised Miss Inspiring Miss Strong Miss Fragile Miss Generous Miss Loyal Miss Fashion Miss Style Miss Beautiful … Continue reading

March 27, 2013 · 9 Comments