Tag Archives: memories
engaging memories
I’m sitting in the spot in Regent’s Park where Desreen and I got engaged four years ago this week. It’s a day much like that one. Warm but overcast. Close. … Continue reading
father’s day
It’s Father’s Day in the UK today. For those of us who are lucky enough to actually have a father, it’s probably a time to send a card, pick up … Continue reading
butterfly sanctuary
This is a guest post written by Emilie Adams Emilie, 44, is from France and lives in London with her family. She was happily married to Rob until 24th March … Continue reading
dad’s birthday
This is guest post written by Nicola Murray Nic Murray is an ex-colleague of mine who I think the world of. Soon after my wife died she wrote to me … Continue reading
crisis point
Don’t panic, I’m actually having quite a nice day so far. Mostly because ever since I woke up at 5am I’ve been able to hear my wife’s voice in my … Continue reading
felicitas vitae
“When I was five years old, my mother always told me that happiness was the key to life. When I went to school, they asked me what I wanted to … Continue reading
eating out
Without even realising it, I’ve taken to eating out alone. I’ve just been on my second lunch date with myself in a week. The first time I was entirely alone, … Continue reading
grieving nothing
I’ve suddenly been hit by a kind of bereavement that I’ve never felt before. I’m sort of grieving nothing. I’m kind of grieving something that never existed. I’m feeling a … Continue reading
dramatic emotions
I ran the Brighton Half Marathon yesterday. It’d been planned for ages and my wife, Desreen, was due to take part with me. I knew she wouldn’t need to get … Continue reading
tough day
It would probably be easy to read my posts and think, ‘Isn’t he doing well?’ so I feel I need to be honest. If I only write when I feel … Continue reading
new year
This is a Facebook post from my personal account that I wrote just before midnight on New Year’s Eve. 2012. Almost half of our son’s life. Our first (and only) … Continue reading
being positive
When someone close to you dies, the well-wisher who tells you to ‘stay positive’ should be prepared for a somewhat negative response. What if you weren’t that positive a person … Continue reading
feeling proud
I am immensely proud of my wife, perhaps more so now than ever before. When I wrote her eulogy, Being Desreen, I asked people to help me and Jackson in … Continue reading
grieving toddlers
Go and try to find some information on toddler grief that will make you feel better about the death of your infant child’s mummy. And let me know when you … Continue reading
