life as a widower

Just a man opening up about how it feels to lose his wife

playing happy

This is a fourth guest post by my two-year-old son, Jackson Bo Brooks-Dutton. In Jackson’s fourth post, he shares his views on moving from the last home he ever shared … Continue reading

May 23, 2013 · 3 Comments

man flu

I’ve just started to feel something like human again after nearly two weeks of suffering from chicken pox. ‘Man flu’, I hear you cry. Well maybe, but I can honestly … Continue reading

May 15, 2013 · 18 Comments

heaven’s gates

This is a guest post written by Bill Wright In January 2013 Bill (37) and wife Mandy (36) were excitedly making plans to buy a bigger ‘forever’ house. They had … Continue reading

May 12, 2013 · 43 Comments

past tense

Today marks six months since my wife was killed. This milestone has had me reflecting on the past. More specifically on the past tense. Something I’ve struggled with since the … Continue reading

May 10, 2013 · 11 Comments

our song

A couple of weeks ago I mentioned that I’d written a song with my musician friend Paul Hand. Well it’s out today and proceeds from its downloads will go to … Continue reading

April 29, 2013 · 3 Comments

multiple loss

This week I’ve been thinking a lot about why I find my grief so completely inescapable. I’ve been wondering why I find it impossible to ever remove it from my … Continue reading

April 25, 2013 · 11 Comments

missing myself

A few weeks again someone posted a comment on my blog asking me if any part of me missed or mourned the person I used to be before my wife … Continue reading

April 24, 2013 · 19 Comments

dry eyes

It’s easy to breeze through life and take it for granted until you are given reason not to. In fact it’s more than easy, it’s an absolute pleasure. Not a … Continue reading

April 13, 2013 · 4 Comments

five months

Today marks five months since my wife was killed. It’s also three months since I started writing this blog and by this time next week our son will be two … Continue reading

April 10, 2013 · 9 Comments

the apprentice

New feelings have taken hold of me this weekend. Untold pain from running up steep hills in the biting cold at a 10K race in Greenwich Park on Saturday morning. … Continue reading

April 7, 2013 · 6 Comments

modern loneliness

“If you’re lonely when you’re alone, you’re in bad company.” ― Jean-Paul Sartre In normal life I’d probably agree with this statement. There’s something so wonderfully gratifying about escaping the world … Continue reading

April 4, 2013 · 7 Comments

you’re her

Many years ago my maternal grandmother explained to me how she saw life and death. I was probably no more than ten when she asked me to walk over to … Continue reading

March 31, 2013 · 12 Comments

ignoring grief

Grief is not an easy business to be in. It pays terribly, it’s totally unrewarding, there’s no opportunity to go part time, and it’s both mentally and physically draining. Mentally … Continue reading

March 26, 2013 · 14 Comments

old people

I can’t remember a time in my life when I didn’t look at strangers in the street and wonder, ‘What are you all about? Anything could have happened to you. … Continue reading

March 22, 2013 · 13 Comments
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