Tag Archives: lifeasawidower
playing happy
This is a fourth guest post by my two-year-old son, Jackson Bo Brooks-Dutton. In Jackson’s fourth post, he shares his views on moving from the last home he ever shared … Continue reading
heavy happiness
The sun was shining on us today. I woke up feeling okay and decided it was time to get out and play. Being ill for a fortnight has not only … Continue reading
liquid hope
Thank God for chicken pox. I never thought I’d say that given the pain I was in and how disgusting I still look and feel, but they did come with … Continue reading
heaven’s gates
This is a guest post written by Bill Wright In January 2013 Bill (37) and wife Mandy (36) were excitedly making plans to buy a bigger ‘forever’ house. They had … Continue reading
difficult company
I’ve tried, so far unsuccessfully, to find out who wrote this poem. Whoever did has done a brilliant job of capturing the ‘please always be there for me except for … Continue reading
past tense
Today marks six months since my wife was killed. This milestone has had me reflecting on the past. More specifically on the past tense. Something I’ve struggled with since the … Continue reading
tough question
On Friday my son woke several times in the night riddled with a fever brought on from chicken pox. However hard I tried, I couldn’t get him to swallow the … Continue reading
sod’s law
After a disastrous attempt at a holiday earlier in the year, I swore to myself I would stay at home for the rest of the year. I was doing so … Continue reading
six months
Next Friday will be the six month anniversary of my wife’s untimely death. It simultaneously means both everything and nothing to me. Everything because I can’t believe how much our … Continue reading
babes’ mouths
Well yesterday took me by surprise. I’ve been telling people how I’m dreading Jackson’s friends getting to that age where they start to compare themselves to others around them. That … Continue reading
our song
A couple of weeks ago I mentioned that I’d written a song with my musician friend Paul Hand. Well it’s out today and proceeds from its downloads will go to … Continue reading
grief lightning
Olivia Newton John has been on TV a lot recently. I don’t even watch that much TV and I’ve seen her on three shows. Every time I’ve seen her face … Continue reading
multiple loss
This week I’ve been thinking a lot about why I find my grief so completely inescapable. I’ve been wondering why I find it impossible to ever remove it from my … Continue reading
missing myself
A few weeks again someone posted a comment on my blog asking me if any part of me missed or mourned the person I used to be before my wife … Continue reading
