our song
A couple of weeks ago I mentioned that I’d written a song with my musician friend Paul Hand. Well it’s out today and proceeds from its downloads will go to … Continue reading
grief lightning
Olivia Newton John has been on TV a lot recently. I don’t even watch that much TV and I’ve seen her on three shows. Every time I’ve seen her face … Continue reading
multiple loss
This week I’ve been thinking a lot about why I find my grief so completely inescapable. I’ve been wondering why I find it impossible to ever remove it from my … Continue reading
missing myself
A few weeks again someone posted a comment on my blog asking me if any part of me missed or mourned the person I used to be before my wife … Continue reading
holiday hand
I’m sure I’m not the only person who used to experience what I call ‘holiday hand’ in their school days. After six weeks off for summer, when my hand was … Continue reading
bittersweet home
This week my son and I bought our first house together. I’ve experienced so many feelings and emotions in moving from the last place we ever lived with Desreen and … Continue reading
just how
Nothing poetic. Nothing profound. And the shortest post I’ve ever written. But as I pack up our old life to build a new home with my son, I’m suddenly left … Continue reading
dry eyes
It’s easy to breeze through life and take it for granted until you are given reason not to. In fact it’s more than easy, it’s an absolute pleasure. Not a … Continue reading
tank engines
This is a guest post by writer, journalist and blogger, Emma Beddington …but first an introduction from me I don’t usually interfere with guest posts by weaving in my own … Continue reading
five months
Today marks five months since my wife was killed. It’s also three months since I started writing this blog and by this time next week our son will be two … Continue reading
saying sorry
This is a guest post by John Crace John Crace is a staff feature writer for the Guardian, where he is best known for the literary pastiche ‘Digested Read’. He has … Continue reading
the apprentice
New feelings have taken hold of me this weekend. Untold pain from running up steep hills in the biting cold at a 10K race in Greenwich Park on Saturday morning. … Continue reading
modern loneliness
“If you’re lonely when you’re alone, you’re in bad company.” ― Jean-Paul Sartre In normal life I’d probably agree with this statement. There’s something so wonderfully gratifying about escaping the world … Continue reading
you’re her
Many years ago my maternal grandmother explained to me how she saw life and death. I was probably no more than ten when she asked me to walk over to … Continue reading
